As some of you may know the full moon went through Virgo last night. It was a time of clearing, of cleaning up and detoxing. I decided to do a full clearing. I cleaned my space. I diffused orange, lemon and lime oils to clear the air. I took a bath in epsom salts with more oils. In the bath I listened to a clearing meditation. I kept the lights low and burned candles. I drew a crystal grid around my bed while there I journaled out what I needed to let go of, did a silent meditation and reikied myself. I drifted off to a dreamless sleep. I woke up this morning and I felt refreshed.
This all came forward because I’ve been struggling it seems with patience and allowing things to unfold. My habit is to push to make things happen. I push for things I want. Money, love, the relationship I want and so on. I could lie to you and say it doesn’t work but here’s the thing. It actually does. The pushing works in the short term. I get what I want, I feel that moment of satisfaction when it happens. It would last for a little while. The wanting sensation always came back like a hungry beast. That hole inside me was still there, wanting to be filled. I didn’t see another way really, until now.
There is beauty in letting go. I’ve said that before, I’ve used it in sessions. I’ve said it teaching yoga. But I didn’t really feel it until last night. The push has gotten me small gain. The surrender is bringing me major shift. Long term wealth. So much healing. All I did was take a bath and connect to myself. I can’t say in words how incredibly powerful that was. How cleared I felt. How ready I am to move forward in life. All I need to do is soften my resistance.
If you feel the need to push, pause. Listen. Get still. Figure out your resistance. Trust yourself. Quiet your mind. Turn inward. If you need a special time to do it, like the energy of the full moon, fine. Start to let go of that too, because your work comes forward every single day. You are given opportunities all the time to let go, to forgive, to trust, to be happy, to align yourself. Realize that you are the creator of your reality and the ultimate healer of you. Know it. Breath it. Feel it. Practice it. Every single day. You hold all that power. That is absolutely the most magical.
Love and Light.
Ann is a certified reiki master, an inspiration coach and a lover of source energy.